Aloha flower friends :)
Writing a bit of an “informal” post here. My birthday aka solar return is this weekend, June 3rd. I’ll be turning 29 (ahh!).
I am so grateful for the lessons 28 taught me and wanted to express them here:
Compulsive → Conscious
I now let moments breathe, allowing myself to sit with decisions, emotions & questions alike before responding. We tend to react on impulse, without weighing the choices in front of us. Though, there is a healthy balance — spontaneity or living in the moment, has its benefits for sure. When it comes to choices, our bodies will give clues. As the quote says “if you let cloudy water settle, it will clear.” Taking a moment to tune into this inner knowing is key. These days, I find myself reaching for lo-fi or classical music for background — less distracting for the mind. Also, the realization that the songs we sing are mantras, and the vast majority of popular songs are filled with negativity decorated with catchy beats and hooks. Speak kindly to the waters of your body, it is always listening. I honor peace & quiet like never before, feeling no desire to fill space with noise for the sake of stimulation — silence is sacred.
I need to → I choose to
Upgrading to conscious language. To express desires in the form of “need” and “want” come from a place of lack & scarcity. I choose to speak with pure intention, and only of what I desire to manifest.
“Language, speech, words, and ultimately thoughts are the casting of spells. Our language shapes energy into matter. When we learn how to “spell” a word, we learn how to shape the sounds or letters of a word with meaning and feeling. If what we say matters to us, it ultimately influences “matter” or turns into matter—physical manifestation.”
Codependency → Trusting my inner compass
Wow, breaking the habit of codependency. I never thought I’d see the day where decision making has become one of my strengths. I spent many years leaning on others to help decide my path. I now innerstand that my path is mine & mine alone. Alone time taught me this, sitting with my thoughts — less reaching out for the opinions or guidance of others. If you resonate with this please know that it takes time to rebuild trust in yourself as it has been given away and/or disregarded overtime. Practice helps; start small, the small decisions are big, as they add up and come around much more often than big decisions. I am choosing to take full responsibility of my life. My intuition leads me, I trust her now.
Labeled eating → Conscious eating
Big one for me, this took time to integrate & get comfortable with. I am officially done with labels. I consume foods that serve my body from a nutritional standpoint. I spent 5 years eating a plant based diet (2016-2021). I enjoyed these years and the discipline that came with it, i.e how to say no to instant gratification. I chose the vegan route due to the discovery of factory farming and mistreatment of animals within these corporations. My love for animals is strong, the idea of supporting this cycle by paying for and consuming animal foods made me so angry. The intense emotion clouded my judgment as there is always a middle ground — any and all extremes are harmful. As of 2022, I consume a balance of both plant and animal foods. Still remaining selective with what I eat and where it is sourced, our local farmers depend on our support. I allow myself to indulge in the occasional sweets and low-quality foods, again there is always a balance. I flow with life as my passions guide me to each new level.
Mundane → Magic
Everything is magic. Our simple day to day tasks are alchemy. The human experience is beautiful — our ability to communicate with one another, mobility of our bodies, emotional expression, how a simple courteous gesture or smile can change the trajectory of someones day. Our outer world is magnetic — the plant and animal life, our interconnected web of consciousness, the water that flows and keeps us hydrated, the sun that shines and keeps us warm, the trees that keep us oxygenated. I choose to see the magic in all of it.
This is my Saturn return year. I am ready.⚡️
couple of pics from my cameraroll. thank you for being here!!! <3 — angelina